HairBand.

You and your smile.
Just sums up and make the highlight of the day of mine.
Your voice its as pure as the Alpine's natural water..
I'll drink it to make me cool down..
I'll save it for another hot day .. so it will just make my day even cooler..
Thats why you're my highlight reel.










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Khai

Everytime..

Everytime I take a quick nap.. I'll think of you..
Even my eyes are close... resting.. my mind.. is constantly active thinking about your presence..
I will be awake all of a sudden.. trying to find you ... but its just a dream..
It indicates that having that feeling of missing you so badly..

But once contacted.
It feels great.



Thank you.






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Khai

It goes on..

The aura of connection seems to be connecting...
Comfort at it is..
Too much touches on the ball by different players....
But the keeper knows its gonna be his and he's not gonna let any goals in..
Cleansheet.
Its all about effort.. Dive to save it, crawl through the mud to claim the ball..
And You Win.

Capiche..?









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Khai.

Epic of Difference

Too many misses far beyond the southern ocean...
Lies too many dark ages...
Dark crowd for which I'm washed behind...
For that ship shall I swim towards.. and I know it will wait for me..
Sore with bruises on my skin..
The salt water seep in deep.. peeling one by one..
Yet I stay strong...
And I know it will wait for me...
Once on board.. I feel safe...
"Oh I'm so glad to meet you, Captain" I said.

She replied with a smile.








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Khai.

Jettison

Don't think too hard...
Its as bad as taking drugs...
Let be smooth and out it goes...
Just the ones of Normality
Stay put and easy...
Things will get better, trust me.


I've having this major problem with myself and I'm starting to worry..
I panic everytime I have a test...
Mind block - Can't seem to absorbed things that have been taught...
I can't even memorise a single bit of thing...
This isn't the Khairul that I've always be...
I really want to know what is this thing blocking me out...
and i want it OUT right now.
O'God..I seek thy help..




Don't worry, its not you.

State of mind.

Just like the Decisions made by the referee.
His decisions are final.


Long live the king.






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Khai.

Binary.

what should I say..
What should I say..
The words of mind...
Always manipulating..calculating..
Charging Point.
The explosives rendezvous point...
What else..
Conceal the watch that says ...


Sadly that message doesn't come on time..
Pretty fucked up myself.. plus disappointed..sad.
I took alot of effort in doing that..
its just like stabbing me with a needle through..
I mean what I say in that message.
Now the atmosphere of reading that message is no more..
Itsjustsopainfultogettoknowthatitstoolateforsuchthings.




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Khai.

TheMic

Monday-

The first ever time when 3/4 of the class doze off..
when the lecturer enlighten us with some good news stating one of the modules which she gonna teach will not be out in exams..

What else..? Some of them already doze off ...
But I was trying my best to stay awake..
In the end.. I fall to the arms of closing the eyes.. and I doze off using two chairs.. as my sleeping place...

I felt sorry for the teacher cause my friend told me that she almost sulk because of the class participation... till my friend labelled " Bringing the ITE attitude " in his facebook shout out..

till then.. I rose up from the dead! and give my fullest attention..
but it was too late.. I don't know what the hell has she gone through in class..
Thus the people surrounding me started to laugh about it..
I started to make the class abit "lively" by just singing Banana In Pyjamas song... randomly.. and just hitting the wrong lyrics ... as long as it fits into the rhythm and tone.

That sparks the laughter.

anyway...

I just borrowed my brother's "Police" dry-fit T Shirt..
and people start saying I look like a policeman..
Im not braggin.. but.. I just don't know what to say..
"thanks.." perhaps?


heh.

Just some of my pictures from yesterday's game.. sadly I just played for awhile.

They labelled me as the young "Abbas Saad"..

It might sounds late.. but

Happy 22nd Birthday. =)



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Khai.

skins.

Its just isn't my day today..
Mixture of disappointed and what else?
Just played for 1/2 an hour..?
That isn't nice..
I couldn't show or perform...
though I have my chances well..
I couldn't blame the weather..
Because its either I need to adapt well or just playin on a bad timing..
Just one of those days..
Live with it..
And what's wrong with me is whatever I said somethin.. just doesn't sound right..
What the fuck am i thinkin?

Face burnin red..
Every time I touch my skin .. the burnin sensation...
Prepare for dry skin, Khairul.

Better luck next time,Khairul.



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Khai.

YouGuys..

A friend that I missed him a lot...
Where we use to study and learn together ...
Once as a team when we do brainstorming and presentations..
Glad to see him being in something that he's pursuing after falling out from school..
I miss those times where I seek help and ask questions from him in terms of our study..
Those times when there were 3 of us sharing our live experiences during our tobacco intake..
Now we missed out another great friend who once have the desire in sports... But he's still into it

A great friend I should say...
As I can see, he's leading towards a good life... a good long-term partner which he has.. - thats good..
Even though I was disappointed in your decision to leave school.. but still you know what you're doin...


Nowadays I'm being so clumsy...
With things on my hands .. It just fall. - Buttered-fingers I should say?
Knocking against things that are unnecessary..
Brain-blocked as I can feel something is preventing me of being a clever person and absorbing knowledge where I could enhance myself...
I still yet to make an impact of myself in my polytechnic life...
For at least.. I want to do very well in one of the major core modules..
For at least .. I want to be proud in what I'm doing for the past 1.5 years..
Yes, I might have the brauns in me... - decently physically-fit and able..
But for what use when he's not a smart person in the eyes of people..?
Its just incomplete..

But I'm pretty confident that I can do that..
Just those times during ITE.. my perserverance ...
But this time its on my own...
I have to live and survive on my own...
With thoughts around me... I'm starting to get the hang of working hard..
The ability to think much better..
I want to show to my fellow classmates that I can ..
I can be as good or better than them...

No doubt my circle of friends do like me in terms of my good personality..
Not to mention the worst moments they have seen... - I just have a split-personality
How am I going to survive..?


I'm starting to miss you alot.. even though you're away from your home..
On a vacation trip...
The voice of yours makes me even more eager to meet and see you..
But wait till the fall of december... I just can't wait...
We are so close.. very close..
We almost spend time together..
We are each others' highlight of our individual day..
From any bad day.. from you who shun the ray of light upon my darkness realm..



The snowball-like feeling keeps growing day by day..
I'm so glad to hear from you when you called..
Ever so glad to chat about things we have been doin and share the experience at the end of the day..

I wish to see you, talk to you and hear from you once again.. perhaps..everytime.. every moment..

Don't you agree?

Its about time since I unleash things that kinda very long..heh.






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Khai.

I miss my riding experience...
I miss the bike that I use to ride...
I miss those times when I go out in the middle of the night to go across the border to refuel..
I miss those times where I can feel the wind breeze past through me...
I miss the adrenaline of riding through the expressway with the freedom to speed...
I miss those times when I do my prayers before going off and start the engine..
I miss the days where I travel back home much earlier...especially from work till 12 am..

But now..
The only thing I miss is .. you.






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Khai

Gory HiJack

Today was option talk.. and pretty much I've to choose which elective modules for my 3rd year studies in Polytechnic..

Did the maths quiz and get 4/10... ( I think I'm the lowest..).. anyway I'll do better..

And the most disappointing thing that could have make up my school day is this pathetic reply from the ITP Chairman-in-charge.. after me forwarding my email to him.. this is my email proposal in need of help.. (see above)

and this is what the ITP Chairman replied... (see above)

I just have to censor those lecturer's emails.. to avoid myself getting fucked up later...
My motive isn't to black list anyone.. just.. to let you see how great the reply was.. This is why I hate writing to people emails.. and this is what the end result will be.


P.S- I don't know how to make the pictures enlarge upon clicking.. so .. yearh.. pardon me..

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Khai

Rule the world..

I just love how Coldplay's Viva La Vida ..
The tune, the rhythm and singing.. - the song..
I feel abit better whenever I listen to this song...

But the most relieving and joyous thing is to hear your voice right after a long hard day..

its just great.. wait...

its not just great.. there's more to it.. even the clouds and skies couldn't even help me to spell out or show you how grateful I am.


:)



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Khai

bicycle.

Sunday. Oh yes.. a day which I always look forward at it. Where I could have friendly games, get to know the result of my performance... how good or bad I am in the game...

But today I was really a smart player.. as far as i know ...
I didn't tired or injured myself today...
and surprisingly I still have the energy to move around and like fatigue hasn't kick in me just yet..

At the midst of waiting for the game.. I made a fruitful call and like finally I am at ease after hearing from her.. We had a quick catch up after not being in contact for like.. heh.. 2 days..

haa.

that was some inspirational when she text me back...

And I did scored my first goal for team.. A bicycle-kick goal...
Thats for you.

It was not the most fluent one.. but .. hell yearh.. its my daily routine goal during Sunday's fun session at Northland Pri...

But in the end we lost.. 3-6

I don't care at all actually... I care about how I play .. my performance...


The Story about the late German Goalkeeper Robert Enke has finally laid to rest.. with about 50,000 fans showed up at Hannover's Stadium to show their last respects after Enke took his own life due to depression.. that is what the media said...


He must have a hard time.. as far as I know.. he suffer depression for 6 fuckin-long-years.
Man.. how can this guy cope with it??

I just can't wait for the pictures to be uploaded at Jaws website...

and yearh.. I'm officially in the Jaws team.. they decide to have me in the team...
after my wonderful cross and debut goal..

The cross was so goosebump feeling...

haha.


What will be next..?


Study Khairul.. study.




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Khai

frucks

So what do I have to say right now...
hmm..

I'm not working today? why? Because I simply can't take it anymore...
having 2 jobs.. and working at the same day...

its just too hard and tough...


its always been tiring...


there's alot of things to say in mind...

I'm just so lazy to really sit down and spread the words out here...

Well .. finally ..exams have ended and done for..

Freedom for you..

:)



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Khai

Something Made ..

Colors the shame...
To whoever it might direct to...
With screams and growls...
With those mannequins bleeding through the eyes...
Don't you see that its bothering me...?

Colors to shame...
The sounds of the doubled-rain drops ...
Couldn't see the eyes from the seas of Indonesia...
Even he couldn't sleep in jealousy...
Its hard to take the soul away...
Its just like this place is going down...


If i would drink..
the water will spill out...
I just couldn't get what it is...
This thing inside me plays me out...

I still couldn't figure it out...
When will it stuck there and get out for...?
Deceiving and consuming all these brain juices...
Think and think for nothing...

Those this goes worth while..?
Or does it shapes to a mould where history repeats itself..?
Not like the World Wars..


Mind Block.



Nevermind.








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Khai

Bad Omen.

Great .. today is Sunday.
And it will end soon later....
I wish it could be prolonged...
I wish...

Anyway.. Had a message when I was asleep from Wandy ...
inviting me to join a "trial" in his team.. Jaws SC .. thats what they called...

Played at Beatty Secondary .. and for once .. I see a very good pitch for a good soccer game..
Luckily I brought 2 of my soccer boots.. because the Mizuno boots are getting worn out.. and I brought the newly-bought Nike... ( I forgot the type .. nevermind.. )

To cut things short.. we had our chances.. but couldn't deliver... I've got much of the chances on 2nd half.. and oh well.. we did lose...

But I was suprised I played against Andrew Leci's team.. !
When I saw him on the pitch I was so .. " wow.. is it him ?!?!? "

If you're figuring out who is Andrew Leci... He's one of the presenters for Espn Sports Centre and Football Forecast..

He's a pain in the ass on the pitch.. but when everything has settled and done.. he's actually a nice guy..


and now.. I'm totally injured...

Hands + Feet + Body + Thigh muscle pulled.. = Priceless...

Miss her ..

you know who..


:)



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Khai

Vcouks.

It doesn't have any meaning though.. ( the title.. )

Initially I intend to post up a few lyrics in mind that I have thought of...

but till I found out that.. my blogskin has been removed...

it must be Aisha..

maybe she's frustrated about the comment that I gave in fb..

oh well.. its okay..

took Nora's advice.. and just be default..

Blue..

still very sad to the dear blogskin that I love so much..

but nevermind..



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Khai

Pre-Season

Each day its getting better and better...
I'm starting to ask silly at the same time some serious questions which I'm in doubt with in school..
I just need to be focus more...
Other than that... it should be a normal day for me.
Found out that Zaki's Aunt passed away yesterday... - my condolence to his family.

The thing about my life right now is just getting to where I dream of..
This isn't a reality dream... - I thought to myself.
This is for real...
It keeps on and everyday its an interesting day to look at and await for...
I truely adore having conversations with you... and I believe you do think the same too..

Slowly the flower open up its petals...
At the same time it blooms wide and freely...
But sometimes the flower is so shy.. that it could change wood to metal...
I'm the gardener.. and have to handle such things carefully..

Just like what I thought about it...

We're on the same plane..
Just that we're on different seatings...
I'm seating near the window with an empty seat beside me...
At first I wonder who it is...
I look out at the window..
Watching the clear blue skies and those white clouds breezing through the winglets..
Not forgettin the sound of the engines...
Reminiscing about the good and bad stuff.. trying to learn the past mistakes...
As I took a glance on that empty seat..
"who could it be?"
But at this time.. I knew who it is...
Just the matter of time of the passenger changing seats and be right beside me...

But the plane is being delayed... hold on to an unknown reason..
All I could do is wait..
Although we are from different seatings..
We have good repo and excellent communication with each other..
We see each other .. but not yet get to meet.
Its only about time when the cabin crew advice us to put the safety belt on...
and the "ting" sound with the signal of it..
marks the whole process of my next stage in life..
To get ready for verdict and answers...


But right now.. seats empty.
At least happy..



Right Nurasykin?

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Khai

just aint worth it.

Only some knows about my weird odd-job yet still schooling situation..
Tried to experience the life of working two jobs in a day...
Its freakin terrible I tell you...
It affects my physical strength.. and now.. I feel so weak and not fit..
I need to quit one of the jobs...
I need to decide it... fast.
I'm more concern on the work in school... then getting money..
Yes.. its worth close to $100 for 3 days work...
But for how long can I be like this...

Thinking so much about it...
I do realise... it just aint worth it..