what's this.

Its always the beginning of time..
you feel like you're ..okay..
and starts to gain momentum... your vibe .. is just unbelievable..
far away from home.. but I'm here eager for your return....
.... Talk things through.. from mild to even some sensitive things in mind..
I'm glad its handle pretty well and we keep on like this..
I heard your say about life...
and you heard about mine as well...
As time goes on and knowing each other is like an everyday routine...
We discover our differences...
But our common interest and ideas are far much more...
We've used all four ways of communication to get in contact.. thanks to technology..

To cool it down..
I have to...
Don't want to repeat another same ol shit..
I like the way you responded back.. positively..
and its okay if you're being too caring ...
Its totally fine...
I'm starting to...
Just like you skipped question 4...


Till we meet again, my friend.

:)






That will be all.
Dimissed.

Khai

The Elbow Strike.

I didn't get a good starting warm up in school yesterday...
for 5 hours... I held on...
Till the last minute.. I snapped...
The elbow strike that makes the crack on the glass door....
And now I'm a hand less powerless... temporarily...

Fucked up with my work.. not with anyone else...
The innocent non-living thing called the CPU was close in becoming destroyed...

I didn't eat the whole day...
and when the whole lecture theatre was so cold...
I slowly feel the pain coming through the elbow joint...
and the cut....


Rested at different intervals...
Was too tired...
My lecturer called ... just now... this morning...
talked about what happened last night...
" I wasn't angry with anyone.. I'm just frustrated with my work..." - I told her...
She's willing to help me... but i'm considering it...
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But anyway... at the end of the day... there's someone to cheer me up..
Had another good conversation..
Shared this incident with her.... - Confide.
I feel better... much better.
Thanks Nora.

:)






That will be all.
Dismissed.

Khai.

A sign of relieve

2 months and 13 days...

that's my disappearing time...

after for so long... I decide to come back, pay a visit to my blog.. and at the same time contribute a piece of my mind ....

I realise how bad my english has become...

maybe because after for so long I didn't blog .. or perhaps reading books.. ( which I found seems nice ... not many people like reading books.. )


There's alot of things that had been going through my mind in the past two months...

Meet new people.. Nora, is one of them ( :

Studies.. Life... and what's next...

There are still lots of questions left unanswered...

Do I have the chance ?
Can I meet that standard....?

Its like me standing in a distance.. watching people that I've come across and see what they do and say ... like I have those powers to view whats on their mind...

and I always like to keep comparing myself with other people...

What exactly do I want..?

Being perfect. - Impossible..
A better person than others ... - ( heh .. yearh?)
Being different.

yearh.. i like that.. Being Different...

Its not a matter of being or having low self esteem...

this is wishful thinking...

Because I realise what is my limit and capability...
Because I know where I stand in the face of the infinite level of society..
Because I know how it feels to feel that way...

Because I want to be different...

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I like her smile..
I like her positive respond...
Although we've known each other for just a short period of time...
It feels like we have that same mentality which makes the system flows very easily in the term called creating " friendship " ...
Although she's thousand miles away from home..
We keep in touch through the virtual world...
And learn about each other ...
Heh.. you know its great to meet someone like you...
Its not sweet talk but at least it gives some fresh beam of light..
For me to confide and share things....
We talk about trust...
And I said its not just merely talking but also experiencing it...
But chance plays a part in it too..
Believe comes along with it...
Respect is earn when you uphold it...
Thus trust is created..

I never had this experience before...
and... will gladly wish this to be not bitter one...


I wish I could...
But I have to control my emotions..
Heh.. I do really like you, new friend..
Wait till your arrival I shall..

But... we can still continue our contacts as usual.. !






That will be all
Dismissed.


-Khai-