2012.
after 2-3 years... I've finally come back where it all started...
My inner voice.
At this very spot..
this very box that I'm typing...
All my emotions.. my expressions.. my feelings..
I let it off..
but with friction...
It rubs hard then knocking against two rocks..
I come to know that I'm very weak in terms of affection..
Very weak when comes to love situation...
I fall for insecurity almost like everytime when I get to know someone who I dear most..
It makes me look like a Paranoia.
On which .. the subject will find it irritated and later on in the stage.. will hate me.
How can I rectify this problem?
How can i rectify this disease of mine... ?
Is it normal..? Or its just me..?
Am i the only guy who shows true affection towards someone ?
Or is it just i'm plainly weak in terms of feelings..?
How can I desensitize myself so that I wont give in that/too much..
It definitely makes me feel hurt .. almost everytime..
Too much things to say in mind... too many things that has been growing and manipulating in my head..
For all the problems that has been created and evolved..
The things that has been set upon by everyday.. - the challenge.
Sometimes its too hard to bear.
Patience is the key to everything now..
Without realising it.. I'm actually not with them.