A sign of relieve

2 months and 13 days...

that's my disappearing time...

after for so long... I decide to come back, pay a visit to my blog.. and at the same time contribute a piece of my mind ....

I realise how bad my english has become...

maybe because after for so long I didn't blog .. or perhaps reading books.. ( which I found seems nice ... not many people like reading books.. )


There's alot of things that had been going through my mind in the past two months...

Meet new people.. Nora, is one of them ( :

Studies.. Life... and what's next...

There are still lots of questions left unanswered...

Do I have the chance ?
Can I meet that standard....?

Its like me standing in a distance.. watching people that I've come across and see what they do and say ... like I have those powers to view whats on their mind...

and I always like to keep comparing myself with other people...

What exactly do I want..?

Being perfect. - Impossible..
A better person than others ... - ( heh .. yearh?)
Being different.

yearh.. i like that.. Being Different...

Its not a matter of being or having low self esteem...

this is wishful thinking...

Because I realise what is my limit and capability...
Because I know where I stand in the face of the infinite level of society..
Because I know how it feels to feel that way...

Because I want to be different...

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I like her smile..
I like her positive respond...
Although we've known each other for just a short period of time...
It feels like we have that same mentality which makes the system flows very easily in the term called creating " friendship " ...
Although she's thousand miles away from home..
We keep in touch through the virtual world...
And learn about each other ...
Heh.. you know its great to meet someone like you...
Its not sweet talk but at least it gives some fresh beam of light..
For me to confide and share things....
We talk about trust...
And I said its not just merely talking but also experiencing it...
But chance plays a part in it too..
Believe comes along with it...
Respect is earn when you uphold it...
Thus trust is created..

I never had this experience before...
and... will gladly wish this to be not bitter one...


I wish I could...
But I have to control my emotions..
Heh.. I do really like you, new friend..
Wait till your arrival I shall..

But... we can still continue our contacts as usual.. !






That will be all
Dismissed.


-Khai-