Silent silence..

The only remedy that will heal you're love affection is through hate...
What more can you do to seek you're admirer reaction .. after for so much you put and effort in
getting her responds...?
Sometimes you need a lot of effort just to do a simple thing.. just to impress her.
Which eventually she will think that you're being so obsessed and getting insane...

Regardless whether she's being nice or straightforward... It all rely on her respond... her replies to what you text or PMed her.. usually girls who are on the same boat as you.. will automatically say something to you.. even though you're just friends.. but if you have something special.. a feeling which only exist for the special one.. that will open a new chapter in the story...

If she responded well and it things happen just like you've expected.. then the " happily ever after.." ending will be your conclusion.. but if she neglect it.. but still respect you as just a normal friend.. then the storyline will depend on how you try so hard to get her.. so its like your decision of impressing someone.. is the pen and ink... to write your story down... with a room for no corrections ...

At times you're sick of it.. keep on trying and trying... just like you can't even start a topic to write on... after scribbling on each paper.. getting a brand new one to start something new... in the end you'll get frustrated because you simply can't get what you want...



And the very best part... I mean the best part where you'll get hurt the most is when that person is lying. Just a simple lie.

Just like any other routine task.. she gets online.. waiting for her to say hi to you.. and when the conversation starts.. and you sound like.." so how was your weekend.. went out huh....... ohh.. to that event..? "

when she replied " ohh yearh.. nice day actually.. went out with some friends.. "...

hmm yearh..you might say.. nothing's wrong about that .... but you can't see whats going on ... after the effort you've put in before.. asking her out on one of those days... just to test the water..
what do you get in reply on that time.. ? " hmmm busy schedule .. you know with my assignment for school on weekdays... as for weekends.. I got some outside club participation..." so on and forth...

You agree by saying.. "oh yearh.. well I think I understand that.. I guess I couldn't have the time to go out with you huh... " ... and she replied with a giggle-typed word.. " hehe.. maybe .. yearh.. sorry ya?" ... that just simply trying to avoid you... So right now.. relate back these situations when you asked her about her well being, those hectic school assignments plus rosters and stuff.. till the point that you starting to get the picture.. of her being busy.. but she's not.. then something's wrong somewhere... and it comes back to this again... SHE DOESN'T WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU.


Just think.. if she can go out with her friends ( you don't even know its friends with the letter 's' at the last word... or just 'friend' which means.. she went out with another person.. just the 2 of them.. ) why can't you? The very other time you so called planned up with her.. could be your day on that very day she went out with her friends ( once again you know what I'm trying to say here..) don't you think...


Well it could be some latent lie... you'll never know.. so I said stop all these effort of trying to impress her.. Yes. even though it takes you loads of time to just form up a very impressive text message greetings and in return you just get nothing but ignorance. How can you gain empathy..

Its really up to her to choose .. to go with.. or push you far away even with the warmest smiles you can get..

Just think.. she's having all the fun time she could ever get ... and you're at someplace thinking hard and still keep on thinking about her/her name and thinking all sorts of nonsense that she might be going out with some other guys.. .. making this whole false-hope-situation into your life dilemma... she already insist and state that she don't want to.. means she don't want... - That is her choice towards you.

Even if she goes out with another guy.. that means she chooses to go out with that guy.. simply because that guy is way better than you ... in terms of physical apperance..? status and reputation that he is in..? Probably age factor is involve too..?

Another simple alternative way to say is that.. "She's just simply much more interested in that guy rather than you... "


So now its pretty obvious that you lost the whole love game.

Even if you scored as many beautiful goals with all your hard earn effort... she didn't even bother you.. but for just one person who hangs out almost everyday with her.. which normally will get the most chances to see her everyday.. will eventually get her attention , sharing with each other's character.. get-to-know-better session.. and the high chance of being close to her.


Its not about the issue of having an "outing" together with her.. its the issue of whether the chemistry between each other.. you and her... does it goes well or otherwise..

So now think. She's human afterall..and so are you.
You're choice is always known ..
But not hers... She chooses on what she desire...

If you didn't get a happy ending..
Then in that case .. lady luck is not on your side..
Although you lost a precious yet rare gem which you could get...
But everything seems to be sweeping away..



That will be all.
Dismiss.



-Khai-