No show..

Everytime i looked at her pictures right now, I feel hurt..like I did before..
Everytime I looked at mine right now, I see the face of negativity...
What did I do to deserve all this ?
Full of unanswered questions in my mind.. and all is about you..
Assumptions and hunches of my own conscious are just the possible answers that I thought of for..
I still miss you... very much.
Words in my head says that you hate me..
But I know its not.. there's something else..?
Why won't you tell me ? Was it my words ? Was it the time? Things gone way too fast ? Yes? No? What is it?
I tried to be a good guy ... yes .. very hard..
But I still receive the same ol' deja vu..
Why am I still missing you whereas you aren't having the same feel...?
I think I have that feeling before.. you just do not want to talk to me.. out of no reason.. - irritate and abit of hatred..
Perhaps the faulty words that I said on the previous times...
How weak humans like me are.. I thought I've learnt my past.. but its just repeating again...
I get so hurt.. I know this syndrome is for a short-term but it keeps biting at the neck..
Where ever I go or being still for a moment.. whenever I start to think for myself.. You popped up..
The air I breath at times I sense your fragrance...
The number which I save under you're name still at the top of my list..
The places that we had gone to.. those buses we took.. all came in a flashback... I keep hallucinating..
Your eyes, your lips, your voice; your beautiful lovely face...
its just there.. projecting in my mind...
Despite your big flaw.. I still do care about you..
Those time you were ill... I brought my things.. and most of the things I did was my first.
But something telling me that I'm just still in a dream...
I can't say " I love you " anymore.. because you ain't feeling the same..
Perhaps I promised myself too much.. Hoping too much...
I know its isn't the end of the world.. but what am I going to do ?
Without you.. the Theme song of my blog...
Without you.. I got hurt yet again..
You beautiful girl, why do you do this to me..
I'm really not angry at you.. just so confused on your actions...
Confused till the extend I get ill..
Sleepless night... yet on that day.. I'm sure you're having a great time with your life.. I wonder have you think about my conditions...
I repeat myself.. I got no time for anger... because that time you're someone very special to me..
and now that special feeling isn't fading off .. yet..
I thought having these r/s ... I could prove myself to be a better man.. yet.. it doesn't ... you're the addition that I have to X it out on my list...
If only time to could be adjusted..

Those memories, Yana...
Will not be forgotten..


Ihavetoputmyselfbacktogether.

Yeah.Nurul, I apologise for the childish act that night.

That will be all.
Dismissed.


-Khai-