FreeBird...

Its a very very very damn long time since I post my other blogs.. and this one mean abit speacial ...

Well I don't know how the hell I get so busy on that week... as I got myself into the volunteering crew member in the Oops event at Sentosa as a soundman... along with my other classmates whom all think its gonna be a very great day ahead ... but in the end.. I have to compromise the Oops event... to go for this Taekwondo Tournament...

Had this taekwondo tournament for two solid days... it was so nervous ... especially the 2nd day.. I don't know why... but the first day of my competition... It was rather decent and as well a day for me not to remember... although I won my very first bout in a tournament... plus a K.O... yearh..


The guy who I fought with... fell on to the ground ... and couldn't stand at all... after hitting him with devastating turning kick... right into the back of his spine... which some of them claimed... the officials I mean of course...

To cut the story short... the ambulance came... and he was put into the stretcher ..... and by the looks of it.. its a very bad one... he's barely unconscious... petrified ... I am... my first ever feeling.. a guy fall on my own hands...

I manage to qualify to the next preliminary round... and lost as usual... I couldn't focus... I don't know what I was doing that time... was too tired... probably because she's around... I was so damn happy for the first time.. since 12 months ago... regarding on a tough break up...

Tasha... is her name..
I just know her through the Taekwondo class practice at Woodlands CC.. on one occassion that I was sparring with a Poom belt guy... and went I've done sparring my ass out and I've sitted down back to my line... she turned back and give some opinions and comments...

From that moment onwards .. I feel so ..hmmm desperate to know her.. as in between of the opinions and comments etc... I've asked about her age... which made me have a shock for awhile...

Well to cut story short...

After she had some trouble with his previous guy... after they decide to go separate ways... She often hmm.. replied my text abit longer than before ... and when I manage to qualify to the next round in the competition... she agreed to come down to hmm... support me ... which in the end.. I didn't impress any of the team and her because of my lost...

but we had a great lunch together.. I don't call it a date... but .. just eating lunch together... even I call it a date... it will sound like I'm a despo... but yea.. we had great conversations... so on and forth.. heh.. she's a hard girl to go out with.. because of her busy routine on weekends... and that very moment I had.. was a privelege to go out with her.. even though its like going around yishun.. bringing her to the park area... where she insist to have a place where's there is a swing...

Simple said.. on that very time... I'm starting to like her... I really do... but hey.. I don't know about her own feelings and opinion.. maybe if I said to earlier... she might feel abit different towards me.. so I decide to keep this secret between myself and god...

furthermore she just had been going through tough times throwing away her memories with her previous guy which they last for 7 months...

but hey teacher , Tasha... I really like you... as in ... emotionally...

maybe she just regard me as a normal friend... which she usually do to her other guy friends...

I just don't want to be misinterpret.. when I say to her the truth... and whether she kindly rejects it... I don't want to be dishearted...

maybe I'm in ... hmmm... love again...

If I am...

She just might be the one who can cover up my past sorrows ...

and if the fate do meet us...

I'm gonna promise to the high of heavens and the lowest of hells... that I will not mistreat her like I did on my previous....

Mistake to be learn.. and I've paid a price to that...

Tasha...

will all these be true..?

Will you ever have the difference of feeling IF you were to read all this... ?

I can't stand to hold it any much longer.. I just need to voice it out... secretly..

yes.. in that hide out of mine...

-Khai-